if i say i want your body now, will you hold it against me? ;)

MADNESS.
everyday i'm thinking bout it.
i should be quitting it and i thought about it. :(
but if anyone asked me to go, i will!
(provided it's gon be fun :D)
there's this policy, (my policy in actual fact..)
"no fun, no me" & "cannot have fun w/o me"
hahahhahahaha.

i admit. i feel lonely okay.
i don't wanna be insignificant to anyone else.
i want to feel needed, i want to feel wanted and loved.
who doesn't.

okay fine, i know God loves me. but what about the rest..
paying lip service only, show it to me.
i want to see it.

knowing myself that i have so few close friends makes me sad.
where are the ones who claimed they are my bitches?
where the heck are them?