Shame on you who fooled me twice, shame on me who let you fooled twice.

super duper ultra nemo this week.
see. cuz, i'm back here blogging. hahahha
no heart to work, no heart to do RJ, no heart to study for tmr's test.
i hate how lil' things are able to affect big big big part of me.
my emotions are so unstable this week.
everyday i'm dying a lil' inside.
i really don't like school!!!!!!!
i rather go church everyday. i wanna parrty this emptiness away.
all i can say is i am damn emo okay. must be PMS-ing. booo.
my heart is wrenching out in pain.
it's the feeling where you just tell your close friends.
"i'm frigging sad and broken and i don't know why."
"i'm trying to be happy" "I'M REALLY TRYING."
i don't know why am i so sad?? maybe it's school, maybe it's fear.
fear is eating me up bit by bit. i really don't know what to do.
i can't quit, this addiction.
Suddenly, everything became so clear so transparent. but i don't want to know.
can i live in denial? God, i'm really really sorry.
i'm a lost sheep now. what had i done to me?
but you see. i drop no tears. i can't cry. and this is making me mad.
cuz i used to cry so much in the past but not anymore.
i'm just rumbling over here. what am i talking i don't know.
what am i feeling, i don't know.