despair

there's nobody i can trust in this world cept God. and just a few.
teammates, facis, friends, people. < ?

feeling very troubled and sad
maybe my spiritual wellbeing isn't healthy now..

Have
Only
Positive
Expectations

Holding
Onto
Prayer
Everyday

why did i put my hope on my grades knowing that it isn't stable.
even working hard doesn't counts.
i have to even feel for my teammates
i have to even clean up their shit after them.
so sad.

i cant even expressed my anger, fear w/o stopping to think whether would i hurt them.
why do i even care about them.

useless beings.

i am prideful but even if i'm not. nothing seems to go my way.

whatever. leave me alone.
like saying sorry would help.

think again.