every saturday i would post bout sermons but.. i think i stopped for awhile. probably cuz nowadays very confused by the sermons, probably i was toooo tired, UTs, stuff's been piling up, prayers.. blaaaaaaaa. and the HK. (we love HK) hahah. need a job need a job! <3
Never felt like this before (or since very long) but i wanna serve moreeeee!!! :D
usher ministry please call me up please please! hahah <3
CGC meeting was superb, although i was kinda lost (yet again) in Pst MJ's sermon.. somewhere along the lines of 5Kings and 1 Sun which stood still. (i really need to read more old testaments. hee :p)
anyway, Pst got me to thinking, like what am i believing God for? and i was STUN. yes STUN.
because me, have always been having very very small dreams. like... ooo, i wanna bring this this this this this person to church. and yea. out of my prospect list, i think i only completed say 5%? hahah. :p sigh...... :(
and, i once wanted to be a CGL. then, a ministry leader. and thinking that it was WAYY too hard. which is now. a CGC or COGL. i rmb, when i first came to church, i wanna be like pris, second in-line. and then i would be super bitter about it. why! why have i not accepted Christ earlier.. so on and so forth. *sigh* me is a super murmuring spirit. but now. like everything is so far away. i can't seem to keep up with the race, constantly, resting at the sideline, cheering others but always forgetting myself..
what do i want? what i do i want? i always pray for blessings. but it never seemed enough for me... friends that actually came to CG and service are not sought by me with great efforts, but i dont know they just come when i asked them to. God really provides, God really helped me so much, more than i helped myself. but what did i do for Him?? :( sigh..............
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